Grrrrr.

Sick and tired of everything.

Self-defence.

I've been busy with school now.. and i feel so stressed whenever i'm at home.

It just feels so tense. It's as if i'll be "attacked" anytime by my mom.

In case you don't know, I clash a lot with my mom. I think my mom would die without fighting with me once a day. This year's birthday was so awesome.

I had loads of surprises coming in.. It makes me feel so touched but in a no tear kind. Dk why.

I'm such a crybaby but I don't cry because of surprises.. ever. Or maybe it's 'cause I kinda expected it in my head before that. It's funny that I cry so easily over what people say, or when I'm in serious conversation I cry because I'm speechless or because someone just hits that 'cry' spot or I call it the emo spot.

Anyway I'm just not happy on this year's birthday because of my family accusing me of neglecting them. On my birthday and my family says I don't love them indirectly. It hurts.. and they don't know anything because they're not me.

I'm so emo sometimes I hate myself very much. I feel like such an attention whore and I'm annoying. Well maybe I am but noone tells me that so I just continue being so.

-sidetracks-

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!!!!!! I'm happpy. Love family gatherings and pressies heh.

And then new year is coming. I wanna spend it crazy this year! Hopefully he'll let me.

oh friend, you left me so speechless...so speechless.